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In keeping with the continuity...

2008-08-21T00:27:00.000-07:00

I will address my prayers of the previous blog. YES! I passed the CPE, with a score that had almost 20 extra points to spare, no less. And, thankfully, so has E.

It's 3:30Am, just finished watching yet another mini series of CR shows, among them JG interviews, and am left with another one of ideas I hope to get to, in the near future, unless I forget, hence the sub subject blog post.

Another blog, but this one designated only for creative writing. Papers I've written for academic purposes. Finished and graded papers only. Only thing is what is the copy right do diligence in this case? Not that I fear someone will fine the writing brilliant, but so that other students will make the same sort of efforts and processees I went through, and discover the great satifaction of a finished product. A job made with effort and independent hard work. Posted for prosperity, and maybe inspiration, on any level.

Yip. Soon. Another. Blog.

I guess, school is my salve.

2008-07-22T21:06:00.000-07:00

The learning annex has become the vessel that encourages my endorphins to work the little engine that could. I say this because now that I have pretty much figured out my schedule, and got my academia ducks in some semblence of direction. I feel a freedom of a life...that has direction.

Sometimes it's scary to realize my retention apptitude, or rather lack there of. But than again, at least there is some what of a recognition of let say an ancient civilization that existed that I vaguely recognize at museums, at least.

New school, new courses, new knowledge, and hopefully new connections and shared philosophies of small and large ideas.

Please, please, please let me pass the CPE. The CPE Gods have to, just have to work with me on this.

This is so not what this blog was intended for, but, it's my blog and I can blog whatever I want to.

Day 7

2008-07-15T19:36:00.000-07:00

Sleepy, sooooo sleepy. To fill a 5 year old, going on 10's dance card is no easy task. All my efforts to stimulate, entertain and plan every hour, day (including meals and events) is a full time job. Frankly my mum and I are pooped. And I can't believe we have till the 25th of July to contend with. If the events are low budget then there are transportation and food costs, not to mention souvenires and snacks. HOW DO YOU MOMS DO IT?!?

I am tooooo old. My hats off to all the moms (and all who are responsible for little ones in place of moms) who do this every single day.

Cheers to y'all.

Crocs, chocolate chip cookies, and row boats in CP...

2008-07-13T20:04:00.000-07:00

auntie who makes me the center of her world.

Still a place of my own...but for how long?

2008-07-10T19:09:00.000-07:00

Well, the deposit is mailed off. After all the anticipation/anxiety, hers, and the strategic itimization of charges, mine, the check was mailed off to her temp apartment. What can I do? I have places to take my family, and things to show my niece. Unfortunately, if she had just been less paranoid, and pushy, the results would of been much more in her favor, but, at lass, I took the road of "why should I" be inconvenienced and bend over backwards for someone who acts so entitled, in every situation?

Sorry to say I did get down to the nitty griitty of spliting even the smallest of cost, i.e. stamps used (for 12 months) sending the rent/utilities.

Well, it did add up to a pretty penny. And conisdering I am really broke I decided to post for a roommate starting next month. At least to see who is interested and what kind of candidates are out there. Just so weird that the half a dozen responses are from a doctor, journalist, designer and from a boy friend of a future law student. Ok, so does that mean she is inept or high maintenance? Or si he just really controlling. And are any of those qualities pro or con, as far as a roommate goes?

Well, I sent my responses, so we'll see. Just need to get my lease renewal straightened out.

My mom had an encouraging comment. She read an article about single women New Yorkers, and you can already imagine the negative aspects. Yes, well...aparently we work and mostly spend without any real security or advancement to the quality of life as we know it. Nice!

A stalker make

2008-07-09T01:00:00.000-07:00

if you leave more than one message about the same thing
if you conveniently forget that you must wait for the outcome
if you come over uninvited and some how enter the building without being buzzed up, then you keep knocking, hoping i would answer the door
and finally, if you leave yet another message that you stopped by and leave another message just to say why I haven't called

Is it just me? or doesn't this person get it.

BTW, this person is my paranoid ex-roomie.

Pics

2008-07-08T06:37:00.000-07:00

Anglofille not only writes beautifully but takes gorgeous pictures, so I asked her what camera she uses.I am very jello...of her camera and her pictures.

Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ5K Digital Camera.

I guess I wouldn't mind if I were painting my own renditions of her photo images. *S* I really do need to starting painting, sketching, drawing, etc., etc., etc.

Speaking of painting, Parisbreakfast does the most darling water colors. She too has a gift...of painting and writing.

Nearly complete...almost home

2008-07-07T00:22:00.000-07:00

Still missing romans shades, and few visitors from Gawgia, but that will soon be rectified. I've been enjoying the comforts of home, minus the roomie and pre mum visit, but it's over shadowed by mum's throat irritation/growth. I hope she will come away with a good prognosis, Monday.

In the mean time I have loads of organizing to go through. Old files, yulk, old clothes, ick, and practicle organization for trategic placements of all my designing , painting, and drawing/sketching stuff. Some semblence of a working studio would be so grand. Maybe so that someday I could invite fellow future artisans to mentor and share ideas with? Hhhmmmm. Wow! Yes! Well, I couldn't have any more extra materials to share. Wow, another thing to jones over.

Hours and hours later...

Mental list of half a dozen to do's, gone.
Replaced by years of blog reading about someone else's life abroad, IN FRANCE, where else!
Scarf down breakfast/lunch
Rush out to meet a professor emailed about catching up
and try to salvage a third of the todo list

Discovering that I still have compulsive obsessive behavior when it comes to blogs, since 1 year ago today, priceless (looooooser).

Killing me softly...

2008-07-06T20:54:00.000-07:00

*velvet cupcakes at Magnolia Bakery
*random unexpected thoughts of what if's/my ex
*my unknown future
*things I still want to do
*places I still want to visit
*blogs of/in France
*the endless links to fabulous blogs
*books I want to read
*acts of kindness
*the love of my life I let slip away
*paintings I still want to paint
*my unknown past
*my time on earth
*i-r-s
*things I still want to make
*a morning baguette from the patisserie at montmartre
*french butter with sea salts
*memories of romantic moments with my ex
*all the men who can't measure up (in my mind)
*all the possibilities
*tomorrows another day

Others

2008-07-05T21:11:00.000-07:00

I am back among the world wide web, catching up on all the blogs I voyeur, and finding all the new exciting blogs that are full of creative, and I mean beautiful creative creations. So many amazing stuff people are doing in the name of art, life and spiritual pursuits, but what about moi? What am I doing? Yes, I am doing "stuff" but these bloggers are doing "stuff" on top of "stuff." Fab-u-lous beautiful "stuff!" How do y'all support your husbands, raise them kids, be a published authoresses, open your life long dreams of that corner cafe, and, knit, draw, paint and design too.

It's enough that I can barely support myself, at the same time trying to stay above water in academia, among KIDS half my age, and act like an adult among peers my age, considering everyone of them are pursuing, advancing and succeeding in their careers. And dating; falling in love! I guess I wouldn't be venting about the said subject, whatever that may be, if I can figure out how to integrate an intimate social life, with my life that I am juggling. Maybe my acaddemic education for the last two years has matured me in the other aspect of myself?

Ya, fat chance.

Well, maybe it's about time I found out? And to quote a writer in the New York Times? "Because really, you never know."

Project: An apartment of my own...

2008-07-05T08:09:00.000-07:00

This blog was meant for fab baubles and handmade creations, but it looks like, because my evil tendencies of procrastination has kicked in-too lazy to open another blog, I will be using this one temporarily to vent my personals.

I digress. I am off to Ikea to finalize my cozy setup before mum and mini me comes to visit. The worries of immediate financials is pushed aside while I enjoy a few days of alone time. And I mean alone time, since, considering in the past, oh, my, gawd! has it been five years since I had an apartment to my self? Ok, so I deserve this month, and hopefully several more months of freedom, peace, and privacy. From the bedroom windows I can hear kids voices and birds. BIRDS! in Queens. Ok, now there goes a train, but that even sounds nice as a bach drop noise.

So far, I feel almost a transition of ick to good energy that is reviving in my home. Yes, it feels like a home.

I am off to buy those few necessities that we women can't do without, in her own home.

Hopefully my other evil tendencies won't veer it's head. Unnecessary spending in the name of cuteness.

Update:

1 floor lamp
1 clip lamp
1 decorative-could be the future mood lamp in the boudoir?
1 shower curtain & lining
1 bath rug
1 jar of the Queens blend of preserves
1 pack of crispbread

necessities not bought:

2 special lightbulbs for the mood and floor lamp
1 very necessary window shades/blinds

ho hum

Time Flies...and best laid plans...

2008-07-03T07:00:00.000-07:00

I can not believe a year has past, and although my goals have not changed (i.e. working towards degrees, fine tuning my artistic skills, etc.) I have become a seasoned student, learning to roll with the frustrations of State academic systems, but surprisingly at the same time finding the whole experience, worts and all, a very gratifying and rewarding experience.

Hopefully, I will be more diligent about posting. Especially all the new baubles I have made, and are quite proud of.

For now I have to git, or else I will be late for the only livelihood I have going.

Colors...

2007-06-05T18:07:00.000-07:00

How do I paint thee.

If I had wings...

2007-06-03T08:14:00.002-07:00

I would be anywhere but here.

Spring 06 final project

2007-06-03T07:48:00.002-07:00

I just took some random shots of these gorgeous silver rose blooms my roomie gave me from her grad bouquet. And as they started to pass their prime even the effects of the wilted edges added to the beauty of nature. I'm hoping to transfer the image of these roses on to my final project, but I'm torn between the roses and photo of Sacre Coeur my friend in Montmartre sent me a while back. Maybe juxtapose the two images? I guess we'll never know unless we get it started...

Hands

2007-06-02T08:10:00.000-07:00

I am over whelmed with the beauty man can create. Almost equal to nature?

New Space

2007-06-01T16:46:00.000-07:00

Stay tune, folks. I have visions of pretty lovely things to feast your eyes on.